Conspirator of Pleasure

Dear journal/all,

Nothing to do right now, and have some time, so thought I'd write. :)

The big event is tomorrow. I go out to DC with a few coworkers and help represent our company as "Walrus" Royce Cobblepot. I have a feeling that people are getting a bit sick of all the 'walrus' stuff our president is throwing at them, so I'm doing my best to lay low and be discrete. I will do tomorrow as well, but ONLY UNTIL/UNLESS people like me a lot and want me to / allow me to dance or do other activities. Otherwise I will take it easy in staying in one place and bopping cutely to music or songs in my head. :-D It will be a good warmup for the NC weekend, I am hoping. As always, I'm worried something may go wrong, but I'll do my best to stay prepared for anything/everything. Wish me luck!!!! Hopefully someone will get pictures and/or video, too! ;-D

Been writing a LOT these past few weeks and posting much of everything on FurAffinity and Yiffstar. And been getting a decent amount of praise for my works, especially from my favorite bear in the world (how I love you! :,) ). While I WANT to be proud of my talent, I still feel quite humbled by those who I know are better than I am, or are able to write in differing styles, whereas I feel that I stick to just one (romantic/sensual). I think I like to imagine myself as Joan Wilder from "Romancing the Stone": writing a huge romance novel between a human and a wolf, bursting into tears as I finish it, then walking through my condo blindly and realizing there are no tissues/paper towels/toilet paper left. ROFL!! ;) Hehe, I smile a LOT at thinking about that! ;)

Even so, I find myself exceedingly grateful (perhaps to a creepy degree, so I should back off of the thanks a bit) to all my fans and readers who appreciate my work and whom I've unwittingly "influenced", apparently. I sincerely hope that whatever talent I have, that it is indeed beneficial, and can be used for good and the betterment of others/society. Do what you love, and find a way to improve the world with it. ;) Sounds like the meaning of life, to me.

Still feel a little sad on occasion. Been VERY lazy in certain tasks I've been meaning to do, but hoping to catch up these days, as well. But it's just no fun living alone. I often wish I had a dog or big bear to hold in my arms at night or feel close to. I am still lucky to have plenty of loved ones in my life, and even luckier to know that I am able to help those who are hurting (at least, I hope I'm doing that!). But often I wonder if this is it for me. The movie "An Empty Bed" (which is a COMPLETELY opposite movie of "Up") shows that gay life doesn't always have happy endings, and I often wonder if, when I'm 60, if I'll still be alone and playing video games on my newly bought Wii, or if I'll be living life to the fullest with my deepest love...

My life is so routine these days, that time goes by so fast. These two suiting events will hopefully add some color to it all (they usually do! :) ), but I hope that, this Christmas and beyond, I will be able to find a way to be closer to others and maybe find that one special friend who, in time, will grow to be my deepest love.

*sigh* There's someone in PA who definitely could be that guy...but I hesitate to say what the future will bring us, since we're still far apart, and a bit nervous on forming anything closer, since it hasn't worked for him, or others I've known, in the past.

Sorry for rambling. But it's been a while since I posted, and I just had some anxieties I needed to let out.

Love you all very, very much. Have a safe week, and if all goes well tomorrow, I will tell you all about it and hopefully have pics to put on Facebook or FurAffinity (when it comes back up. Seems to be down for a while now!).

Big hugs!

Furio / Royce

Current Mood: a bit nervous...

Hey all,

I just had to tell all y'all the good news. :-D

Yesterday, the president of our company called me into his office. I was, of course, awaiting the "Great, I'm fired...oh well, it had to happen SOMEDAY."

Now, a little bit of background. I work for a printing company that, while not the most prestigious printing company around, is always finding unique and amazingly creative ways to get their name out there, and to do things for others.

One of the things we do is make a yearly calendar with a unique theme, that is almost always colorful, interesting, and quirky. This year, furries would celebrate us, as our theme was "Social Networking", and each month of the calendar shows an interesting name for the taxonomy of animals (i.e. "an earth of foxes", "a smack of jellyfish", "a flamboyance of flamingos").

Our company is one of the primary sponsors and attendees at a local DC get-together next week in a VERY snazzy looking nightclub. They are going to do an interesting promotion for the calendar, with the winner of a unique "lottery" getting an iPod.

So they thought, are there any animals whose group names are "pods"?

Well, seals, sea lions....and walruses.

So Royce is going to the EyeBar to promote social networking, ads, and bukkits of iPods! (or maybe just one)

And plus, this bar looks EXTREMELY neon-ish! It's like the Casino Night level of Sonic 2 meets Carnival Night level of Sonic 3, smeared with Starlight level of Sonic 1!

http://www.eyebardc.com/

I'm VERY happy and excited about this...who knows, maybe Royce could be the next marketing gimmick of the company? :-D

Huge flipper hugs,

Royce

P.S. The president thought it would be cute for my ever-changing sign to say, "Have you seen my Pod?" And while I don't want to be overbearing/overwhelming in the way I present myself, do any of you have any other ideas or comments for things I should do or take advantage of, as the walrus? :-D

Current Mood: excited

Hey all,

I discovered this a year or so ago and got a small pamphlet, but never went to the actual event. It was held in Oakland, Maryland at the time, and seems to be almost every fur's dream (or nightmare, depending on your viewpoint):

http://www.procession.org/index.php

It apparently started in Olympia, Washington, and acts as a celebratory event, honoring wildlife and our connection to nature and each other. The one in Olympia spans seven weeks of arts, crafts, dancing, and music, with a final "parade" of masked and costumed people (almost all of them animals) of all ages.

Why does this sound like a seven-week-long FURRY CONVENTION?!!

:-D Don't get me wrong, I think this is a great idea. The website also says (under Outreach) that there are chapters of it all over the U.S., hence the one in Maryland that I heard about. They have inquired others in other states about it, but have heard nothing. They even asked Patch Adams himself, here in Arlington, Virginia!!!

C'mon, Patch! This is our chance to give back to the community like you always wanted!!! :-D What're you waitin' for?!!

They also have tips and handbooks available for starting your own procession in your own community. I doubt I could do that, though....I'm sure there are LOTS of funds necessary for such a thing. Or else I'm just extremely lazy. :-/

Still, to anyone who's interested, please check out the website and see if anything's happening in your state. I'm hoping that they'll realize the magic of the furry fandom, and allow us to help spread the word!!! Yay!!!

:)

Love,

Furio / Royce

Current Mood: excited

Just a quick message.

Sometimes it takes just a photo, or a kind word, or a hug, or something simple, to make you realize just how much you can mean to someone, and just how special you are, especially when you're wondering what on earth you're here for anyway, when you're not doing amazing, nearly superhuman tasks.

Lots of people have been making me feel very VERY special recently, in very simple, tender ways.

I'll never be able to be as amazing as some of my friends and those who do so much more than I do....but for what I DO do (stop snickering) and who I DO make happy....well, that leaves me feeling extremely fulfilled and sincerely happy.

No, I'm NOT hepped up on goofballs. I'm writin' a positive, happy entry for once! So SMILE, dammit!

Seriously, much love to you all. Take good care of yourselves this day/week/month/year. :)

And to all those close to me, I can never thank you enough for what you do for me. *embraces you close to my heart, nuzzling you with my whiskery tusks*

I SAID I'm not hepped up on goofballs!

Lots of love,

Furio / Royce

Current Mood: happy

Just a quick post, because I ought to show some kind of respect for once.

I forgot that yesterday was Veterans Day (thought it was today), so I apologize and salute all our past and present veterans, and honor what they do for us (though when it comes to killing out of defense, that's where I have to stay silent in my opinion).

The day is probably the second most depressing holiday for me, next to Good Friday. I'm ashamed to say that my respect for veterans is not as intense as all the negative emotions I feel when I think about soldiers or veterans: jealousy, anger, depression, despair, fear, pain, and much envy (I wish I was as heroic or selfless, to the point of giving my life for somebody else).

(BTW, the anger is not towards the veterans, it's towards all those who call them into action and put their lives in danger, while they sit back at home, safe and sound, not realizing that the reasons for doing this in the first place are far too specious. Re: "When the Tigers Broke Free" by Pink Floyd:

"And that's how the Royal Fuseliers Company
Took my daddy away from me.")

Indeed, thanks to my unfortunate (?) viewing of Pink Floyd's The Wall when I was six, I came to realize all the horrible repercussions of war and death at home and abroad and to millions of individuals, and it just makes me feel the pain all the more. What's worse is knowing that I'm here in America, safe and sound, while the unsung heroes are either risking their lives abroad or sleeping in cardboard boxes here at home on the streets (my dad used to wear a sweatshirt in the Clinton-era saying "Only in America can a veteran sleep in a cardboard box, while a draft dodger sleeps in the White House." That had a profound effect on me. :( ).

So, "Happy Veterans Day", but it's a contradiction in terms for me. It's one of the most painful holidays for me. I know, not as painful as being in the thick of battle or losing your loved ones in a war. But all I have to do is close my eyes and imagine, and imagine it too well. :(

*sigh* :( Too much fucking pain.

Marc

Current Mood: miserable
Current Music: "Us and Them" -- Pink Floyd